What can I do?

I am very well aware of what I can't do. I am not capable of curing cancer. Without the resources and knowledge we would all die of cancer cause I couldn't do a darn thing about it. I will never be a gold medalist in track and I would have to worst looking house if I tried to design and build one myself.

But what can I do? I know I can listen. I may not always be as receptive as I should be, but from experience I can be an ok listener. I have been able to bring nine kids into this world without much trauma, although it seems that ability has left me. I guess I never really thought about the fact that some talents or gifts would only be temporary. I was a baby making machine for a long time, and now my body just can't do it anymore. But when I was in those baby years I got them here relatively easily without thinking too much about it. I can write, and this ability has not always been here. I also recognize that this gift is one that needs to expanded on. I have a long ways to go before I am where I want to be, but I think I am on my. When I was in college I was really good at writing poetry. I loved to do it, and it came easily. Not so much anymore.

What else can I do? Listen to lots of chaos without going to crazy, play the middle man quite easily and I think I can truly forgive like no one else can. Only a few times in my life have I held a true grudge on someone, and let me tell you, they deserved it. I love people too. I guess that can go along with the grudge thing. I genuinely care about others, unconditionally. Last Halloween my neighbor explained to me that they were not going to have candy for trick or treaters because her mother had died suddenly the day before. I cried with her on the sidewalk that night. I had never met her before that moment and I have not spoken to her since. But I did care how she felt that night and I was honestly sad for her. I can also sing. I still do, and I have found that this gift is one that comes and goes per my willingness to do it. I can go years without singing a note, and then pick it back up quickly.

My point? I think I have some things to offer this world...maybe not a lot, but some. I just felt like every now and then we need to see the good in ourselves. There are so many times that we choose to not love ourselves, or we are so hard on ourselves. Every now and again we need to see the good we have to offer not only those around us, but the good we for us, ourselves. What can you do? I would love to hear!